I'd arrest you if I had handcuffs
I'd arrest you if I had the time
I'd throw you down in the backseat
As if you committed a terrible crime

There’s no chance now of a recovery. No matter what sort of thing I do, no matter what I do, it’s sure to be a failure, just a final coating applied to my shame. That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. Living itself is the source of sin.